Saturday, May 24, 2003

SEQUEL TO A FAIRY TALE


It was an assignment that I had given to my Journaling Class. I completed my assignment believing my students would also and hoping that they would have as much fun with it as I have today. If you are a writer or a want to be writer, try writing your own fairy tale and see how much fun it is to release your creative self from the “can’t do” critic in your head.

ONCE
A very long time ago
When time stood still
There was a young woman who lived in a shoe who had so many children she didn’t know what to do.
So, in the quiet of each early morning just as the doves began to wake and call her name, fly from their tree perches they would coo in her ear and tell her wonderous stories. She wrote them down quickly to tell her children later in the day at nap time and bedtime.

Stories about Tim who lived on a hill
And Jan who fell down and broke her crown
And Brian who galloped to Bayberry Cross to meet a fine lady on a white horse
And Eric who was King Arthur’s knight and early every morning rode his motorcycle like the wind on dusty trails
And Ginny’s halo slightly tilted on her head, stars in her eyes and books by her bed
And William the learner who even when pressured would never tell of the magic he could conger
And James who spun webs of intrigue around every pencil and brush of all the things his mind could see.

The little children grew to become handsome adults and found their paths away from the shoe that kept them warm and confident in what they would finally do.

One by One the woman who always loved them true, kissed them goodbye and wished them well and knew that all was quiet, good and well because now her stories were being told by many who had children of their own and they didn’t live in a shoe.

THE FAIRY TALE SEQUEL

One by one as the children grew they chose to leave home. Some left when they were very young and one stayed to care for and guide his mother. By then the shoe no longer fit. So from a big place with many rooms they sold and moved and then they built an “Enchanted Cottage” deep in the woods with an English thatched gabled roof, bright green shutters on the windows with flower boxes filled with bright crimson geraniums and purple wave petunias. Wrap around porches enhanced the cottage where at dawn and dusk Mother sat in her white wicker rocking chair writing her thoughts.

Sounds of the ocean waves brought a plethora of emotions from turbulence to peace. Mother’s stories depicted the rise and fall of emotions as the waves crashed and slashed the beach and dumping a treasure trove of gifts. Calm days where the ocean’s waves lazily wandered in and slowly slithered away washing the beach sands clean of debris and leaving only the treasures.

As the years rolled by from season to season Mother’s laugh wrinkles burrowed their way into her lovely face. Her long blond braided hair turned to silver and highlighted as if angels had touched it with their wands. Silver hair cut short and soft feathered curls framed her face. Gone was the blond braid. Blue eyes dimmed by age but twinkled always with a combination of mischief, patience and love. A deep peacefulness filled the Enchanted Cottage as did the fragrance of fresh baked cinnamon buns and gourmet coffee brewing for expected and unexpected guests.

There was time now for everything. No hurry or scurry to get things done because one by one loved ones came to visit, to share their joys and woes and work if it was needed.

The woman who once lived in a shoe was old now but her life was full of song and dance, parties and fun mixed equally with quiet, peaceful alone times where she busied herself in her gardens bringing glorious color to the lush green of the forest where she lived.

Daily she walked, in all the seasons from winter and snow where she sculpted life sized angels and snowmen. Walking into spring enjoying warm rains that nourished the flowers she planted and especially the lilac bushes that were her favorite of all. Walking into summer cultivating and watching everything grow and then into autumn to harvest what she had planted in the spring and nurtured in the summer.

Mother would walk across the bridge that spanned the creek and onto the stretch of sandy beach to the ocean, savoring every delight along the way and writing about them.

One day in the autumn of her time, she sat in her white wicker chair on the porch that wrapped around the cottage, journal and purple pen in her hand and time stopped.

For a moment as time stood still for everyone who knew her around the world. Even though it was autumn they felt her gentle touch as if it were a warm spring breeze and the air was filled with the fragrance of lilacs. They knew it was she, the woman who once upon a time lived in a shoe and had so many children she didn’t know what to do. They knew—all of them knew she had left them but her gifts to them had everlastingly stayed. It was her love and her stories she wrote and told.

The woman who lived in a shoe who had so many children she didn’t know what to do so she wrote about them and left them but her loving memories stayed forever and because of it they all LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

Nettie Morse 5/24/2003

Thursday, May 08, 2003

THE COMMEDIENNES
Insights from the Red Pen


Beloved,

Happiness spills out as the new Red Pen writes and I show up on the page. This new pen is slow to come alive, I had an old girl friend like that once! :-)…

Yes, we are playing here. You have been in a serious mode for too many weeks now. Know that all is well.

You love the gentle spring rains. That’s how happiness shows up, savor those moments while they are here. You never have to look for them you only need to be aware that where every you are in what ever situation you find yourself you can also find happiness too. You just have to develop a keener awareness. Yes, your elevator story is a good example. The day could have been very difficult. Traffic was busy, there was lots of construction, the university complex was congested with many students and people hurrying. Your sense of being lost. Then you had to face the parking garage and the maze of elevators, signs to read and understand, winding hospital hallways, bridge walkways to find and the deep concern for a very sick child. You felt your friend’s prayers, their lift up at all the crossroads literally and emotionally ---- happiness was difficult to feel but you found it.

The humorist you are saved you. Who else but you could step into an elevator on the 8th floor be met by a smiling handsome older man wearing a business suit and an employee’s badge?
“I can’t get lost in here can I,” you asked?
“No it’s straight down from here.”
Seventh floor, enter another handsome older man. Three smiles now and your comment about the huge hospital complex and how easy it was for you to get confused. They agreed.
First floor elevator doors open, the gentlemen bow, and usher you out, the employee asks, “Where is your car?”
“Parking Garage “K”.
Visitor, “My car is there too just follow me.”
And a nice long walk around the maze, across the bridge between buildings and a conversation about sorrows and fears for loved ones.
Stopped at a flank of elevators again, doors open, elevator full of grim looking mix of people. Doors begin to close, you’re facing group, “Who called this meeting?” pointing to the woman to your right, “Did you bring an agenda?” They all laugh, broke the tension. You turn around face the doors. Elevator stops. A young man’s voice from the rear of the elevator says, “I make a motion we adjourn this meeting.” More laughter, the man you followed to the elevators in the parking garage to find your car whispers in your ear, “Honey, this is your floor, you can get off now.” You hug him, blow a kiss to the others and left. Getting home was easy. Your sadness lifted, happiness can be found everywhere when we look for it.

God and Nettie the Comediennes… (Written 5/2/03)



Wednesday, April 30, 2003

HOW TO CHOOSE
Insights from the Red Pen


I’M FEELING TODAY THAT I NEED TO BE WISER IN THE CHOICES I MAKE.
I NEED TO TRUST MY DECISIONS AND STOP FEELING INADEQUATE.

HOW DO I CHOOSE?

Beloved,

Use your feelings of inadequacies to your advantage. Put them to work for you. What you think you can’t do, DO anyway. Go past fear until you realize your goal.

Celebrate and thoroughly enjoy all of your leisure time now that you have plenty of it. When you have quiet time be quiet totally. When you read, read. When you move call it exercise. Forget routines, utilize every moment you move and say its exercise for your perfect health. You’re a writer so write. Stop thinking about the difficulties of getting published until you have written something finished for a publisher to edit.

TODAY I FEEL UNWORTHY AS IF I WEREN’T DOING ENOUGH. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING. I’M NOT OKAY TODAY.

Beloved, accept it, it is just one of those days where your life frightens you. Learn from it. Where did you get the belief that you were not okay, that you were inadequate? How you feel today is what the writer’s of the Garden of Eden story thought Adam and Eve felt. Maybe they didn’t.

Instead of feeling outside of your life thinking about what more you need to do believe you have it all now and what you are drawn to do is your purpose slowed down because you are living the Golden Years now. Not old but resting because you are not of child bearing age. It is like the seasons, there is a time for everything. Enjoy the winter of your life now. That quiet in the cave time, a feeling very safe time. The spring of another lifetime will come soon enough. Take your time to enjoy what is before you instead of rushing about feeling lost. You have been given free will, so choose what your heart tells you.

Love,

God…

Journaling with Nettie Morse 3/17/03

Monday, April 28, 2003

THINK ON THIS
Insights from the Red Pen


Beloved,

There is nothing in your life to redo or rethink. What was, was. Nothing more, nothing less.

You do not have to change who you are because who you are is perfect for the world you live in.

Now Dear One, think on this – spin your tales because they bring significance to the work that you do. When you struggle so against what was you cannot be free to move forward. Unshackle the harness that keeps you bound to your past and think of it only as an outworn buggy that no longer is usable. Leave it, ride the horse that symbolizes GODPOWER to accomplish new things and if or when you ride by old thoughts that cause you to be “buggy” about your life know they are only reminders to unhitch and be free to choose another way to live.

Be free and happy today. Write about that tomorrow. You don’t have to be different to make a difference.

Love,
God

Journaling with Nettie Morse 3/15/03

Saturday, April 26, 2003

KNOW MY LOVE FIRST
Insights from the Red Pen


Beloved,

There is nothing to do that isn’t already being done for the ones you love who seem to be suffering. No one loves them like you do and that love is very powerful.

Be gentle with your dreams that are showing up now. Do not let your past experiences discolor it. This is a time in your life where you get to play and have fun.

Expect joy now and new light to show you what you need to see and feel. You will not miss the smallest of movements toward significant relationships. It is very important to like each other first and it takes time to develop that before love – true love can be the lasting kind. Romancing is all the warm fuzzes and not to be missed. Don’t be in a hurry because if you do you will short circuit memories that carry you into old age. Remember take time to build the foundation by liking one another. Enjoy the discoveries found in romancing one another. If and when love follows there is a new kind of learning adventure that never stops. Sing the song, “Getting to know you, getting to know all about you…” Remember what becomes familiar can often side track you into missing what truly is happening in the growing up of each other in the relationship. These suggestions are not just for lovers but are good suggestions for every significant friendship you will ever have whether it is parent child, child parent or friend. Let this thought imbed itself in your “thinkabouts” to think about, every casual acquaintance has the possibility in it to experience loving one another forever. There is life after life and the love you have never dies, it follows you where ever you are, this world or the next.

If you are alone, learn to be content in the aloneness. It does not mean you have to feel lonely. Sometimes finding yourself in a crowd can be lonelier than being alone. Go slow when you are presented with the opportunity of meshing another life style with what you have. Look carefully at what you want in another way. Trust your perceptions and intuitions. You may not have all of the facts in the beginning but your knowingness is keen always. Trust it. Take time to daydream as you did when you were a child. Life was safe and happy then let it be so again.

Balance your emotions and know my Love first then everything will come together perfectly.

Love,

God

Journaling with Nettie Morse 3/3/03

Friday, April 25, 2003

I AM THE ONE WHO LOVES YOU
Insights from the Red Pen


Dearly Beloved,

Often your heart seeks confirmation of just what God is. Especially when your mind is like a hungry dog attacking a bone and won’t give it up.

Cherish all aspects of your self because within your questions and your emotions that feel them I show up for you.

I am the sound of the shovel Larson creates when he clears your driveway and walk. I am Larson when he queries regarding your needing to work this morning. I am Larson shoveling.

I am the sound uttered by your friends who boost your confidence.

I am the phone calls from your sons and daughters saying “I want to share this with you.” I am the friend who calls with the weather report and a promise to pray for you while driving. I am the road rescue dispatchers and tow truck driver. I am the smile in everyone’s eyes that passes by you. I am the squirrels and robins and Canada geese that entertain you on a bleak day.

I am the sound of the wind under the eaves of your roof. I am the men who built you the new roof.

Have you caught the idea of what God is now? Because I can show up in words forever until you do.

I am in all things good.

I am the One who loves you.

I am God…

Journaling with Nettie Morse 2/15/03

Thursday, April 24, 2003

CHANGE OR NOT
Insights from the Red Pen


Beloved,

Sit quietly for a moment.
Be Still, know that I am God.
Think about what that feels like.
Now get out of your head.
Shut your eyes.
Sip your coffee.

There is nothing in your house for you to do until tomorrow. It’s a mini vacation. Relax into it and enjoy it. Not every day has to have a product at the end of it, something done that you can measure. That’s an old habit, get over it! It’s Okay.

Empty your mind, find the quiet.

Don’t be critical of yourself. Be kind. Treat yourself like you treat others.
Accept you.
Accept the fact that you do not have to change anything about you.
Your best is enough.
Don’t analyze what your “Best” is.
What you do is always good enough.
I’m not hard on you why should be?

Love,

God….

Journaling with Nettie Morse 1/10/03